I spent all weekend trying to write a post.

I stared at the blank screen for longer than I would like to admit and I came up with absolutely nothing.

My life is stuck in a rut right now. I feel as though I’m trapped in a revolving door of going to class, then to work, and then waking up and repeating it all again the next day.

I wanted to write this weekend because writing is my way of working through things and processing life…but I’ve got nothing.

Have you ever been in a mood that you’re unable to describe? A mood where you’re unable to name the emotion you feel? A mood that you don’t know why or what caused it? Have you ever felt like there are things you need to get off your chest but when you go to speak, nothing comes to mind?

Well right now, this is me.

I’m stuck in a rut, in this mood that I’m not quite sure how to get out. I’m stuck feeling like there is something I need to say, but I don’t quite know how to put it into words.

Don’t get me wrong, I love the life I live. I enjoy going to school and I look forward to going to work. I’m grateful for the situation I’m in and I know that I’m blessed to experience the opportunities I have.

But I miss my family. I miss my friends. I even miss people and days from the past that are long gone.

Life is full of ups and downs, of highs and lows. Some days we may feel as though we are floating high on cloud nine where nothing bad can reach us, and others we may feel like we are stuck under a gray cloud.

But never forget, you need a couple bad days to appreciate all the good days. 

Always strive to believe that something wonderful is about to happen. Something great could be right around the corner and you would never know it. So, this is what I’ll do. 

Instead of focusing on this rut, on my weird mood, I choose to focus on the good things in life. I choose to believe that something great will happen to me when I least expect it. 

One day you will finally grasp that unexpected things are always going to happen in life. And with that you realize that the only control you have is how you choose to handle them. So, I made the decision to survive using courage, humor, and grace. I am the princess in my life and the choice is mine. 

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Written by jazmynpatterson

just a small town girl, living in a beautiful world

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