When I was a child, I used to think that my natural pout meant that I was always sad.
When I was a teenager, I thought my resting bitch face meant that I was always mad about something.
This morning, as I looked at myself in the mirror, I again examined how the corners of my mouth naturally pull down to my chin. But, for the first time in a long time, I really feel happy. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I am in a really good place in life.
I’m not writing this blog to brag about how great my life is compared to everyone else, but more so as an example to always believe that something amazing is waiting for you just around the corner.
A year ago, I was working a desk job that I hated. A job that was solely for the purpose of making ends meet. A year ago, I was unsure of my future career path and I doubted myself. A year ago, I was ready to give up on my dreams, and move back home with my tail between my legs.
Today, I am working the jobs of my dreams with both the Orlando City Soccer Club and the Orlando Magic. Today, I am two weeks into my coursework as an Event Management major and I am loving every minute of it. Today, I am ready to take on the world and prove that I will be so successful, that everyone will know my name.
I think that the place I was in a year ago was just the breaking point of saying that I was okay or that I was fine when I really wasn’t. I had lost my confidence in myself and for a while it seemed easier to just retreat into solitude.
But then, I discovered the screensaver. The screensaver is infamous between me and my roommate and we sent it back and forth to each other whenever one needed a pick me up.
Every time I looked at my phone, I read the words (excuse the language) “Wake up every morning and tell yourself you’re a badass bitch from hell and the no one can fuck with you and then don’t let anybody fuck with you.”
So that’s what I did.
Slowly, but surely, I was able to pull myself out of my shell. I got back out in the world, I reconnected with friends and met new ones. I pursued job opportunities that will help me with my long-term career goals. I have had experiences that a year ago, I would have shied away from.
Don’t wait for Friday, for summer, for someone to fall in love with you, for life.
Happiness is achieved when you stop waiting for it and make the most of the moment you are in now.
So, find your happiness.
Every one deserves to be happy.